Been So Long

Woah......... It's been like 2 months since I posted my last 'post'. What happened to the vow I took(to write freely on this blog at least once a week)? Gotta work up.

The reason I suddenly decided to write again after all these days is because I have something really important to say.

Man, do I feel proud!

You see it's summer vacation and I had nothing do to, literally, so I decided to check out my blog. You know, look at all the good comments, smile, look at the bad comments, contact the people who wrote the bad comments, pay them back, smile, and so on. I was then looking through the posts I had written ........... when I bumped into the post in which I temper-tantrumed about how much homework we were given. As I read what I wrote about several weeks ago, I couldn't help but notice that although I had described the amount of our tasks as something against any logical reasoning, I ultimately succeeded in doing them!! In Time!! To have realized this was astonishing and I suddenly became overwhelmed with self esteem.

When I think of it now, I think I was apprehensive about everything at that time. Now I know that every complaint I spat out, every curse I put on our school was nothing but an excuse to let myself think I was behind others. I am no different from anybody who comes to our school; therefore why should I be the one to express what everybody feels inside out loud? I am so ready for the second semester. The challenges I will face in a few weeks will be no different from the ones I faced months before, so I think I'll be able to handle them more efficiently.


However...........(gulp)....... it is true that I am a bit concerned about myself. Man, everybody, and I do mean EVERYBODY, seems to be studying. I have always recognized "Vacation" as a "Period of relaxation and preparation", but emphasized on the "relaxation" part more than anything else. Conversely, everyone else seems to think differently. I feel unspeakable inferiority towards them.... Oh well. If anything bad happens, it's my fault, so I shouldn't complain. Best wishes to everyone who worked hard these past few months.